Ente pranayam...

Arranu nee enikku..?? oru mazha pole ennilekku peythirangiyath enthynayirunnu...? jeevithathil nashta swapnangal kaanaruthennu aagrahichirunna ente manasilekku enikkorikkalum swanthamaakan kazhiyatha oru kannima nerathyl ennil ninnum maanju pokunna oru kinaavayi nee ente ullilekku vannu..nee enna pranayathe njan ulkondapol jeevitham oru vasantha kaalamayi maari...Ninniloode pranayamenthennu njanarinju...oro raavum pakalum oru panineer poo pole ninnilekku njanalinju chernnu...swapnangalil nee ente raaajakumaranayappol yaadharthyangalil nammal randu dhruvangalil aanennu njanariyunnu..ee bhoomiyile avasanathe aathmaavum paranakalunnath vare ninnodopam njanum undakum....ente chintha mandalangalkkum atheethamayi nee nadannu vannath ente nenjakam kadannayirunnu...athil ninnum ittu veezhunan oro chora thullikalum ninte per kori idunnu...oraayiram purushanmaaril ninnum nee ennilekku kadannu vananthum akaluvan hramikkumbozhum ninnilekku veendum enne adupppikkunathum pranayamallathe mattenthanu....nee ariyathe njan ninte nizhal pinthudarnnu veruthe njan mohichu ninte nizhaalaakan kazhynjirunnegil......ninnodulla ananthamaya sneham innenikku unmaadhamayi maarunnu..prayathinithrayum theekshnatha undengil nee enna pranayathinodu adangatha unmaadhamanu enikku......rithukalkkidayilae manju thullikal pole ee janmam nammal orumichu...

ENTE NASHTANGAL...

maranam enne vedanippikkunnilla. Pakshe Ente nashttangal. Eee bhoomi, Njan kanda prabhathangal, ente nada vazhikal, vayal poovukal, Nananja mazha, nilavinte kulirum ...Ilanjipookkalude gandham..... , Ente adya pranayam, athu mathramanen nashttangal...Ini athu kanuvan kazhiyatha vidhathil ennennekkumayi njan ee lokam vittu povuka...
Nashttangal athentethu mathram...............

Kabhi alvida na kehnaaaaa........

tumko bhi, hai khabar, mujhko bhi hai pata
ho raha, hai juda, donon ka, rasta
door jake bhi mujhse, tum meri yadon mein rehna
kabhi alvida na kehna
kabhi alvida na kehna
kabhi alvida na keh
tumko bhi, hai khabar, mujhko bhi hai pata

ho raha, hai juda, donon ka, rasta

door jake bhi mujhse, tum meri yadon mein rehna

kabhi alvida na kehna

kabhi alvida na kehna

kabhi alvida na kehna

jitni thi khushiyan, sab kho chuki hai

jitni thi khushiyan, sab kho chuki hai

bas ek gham hai ke jata nahin

samjha ke dekha , behla ke dekha

dil hai ke chain is ko ata nahin

ansoon hai ke hai angare

ag hai ab ankhon se behna

kabhi alvida na kehna

ruth a rahi hai, ruth ja rahi hai

dard ka mausam badla nahin

rang ye gham ka, itna hai gehra

sadiyon bhi hoga halka nahin

kaun jane kya hona hai

humko hai ab kya kya sehna

kabhi alvida na kehna

kabhi alvida na kehna

kabhi alvida na kehna

LETTING YOU GO..............

We had said good-bye so many times before, but somehow our paths always managed to cross and we ended up in each other's arms. But now when we said this good-bye I have this feeling that I will never see you again. And that really hurts because I know that we are meant to lead our own separate lives. And I honestly don't wanna cross your path in the future cause I don't want all these feelings to come back and have to try to get over all over again."

"I guess we've had our fun but it seems our fun is over now and that's all right it's all right time for me to move along and after all is said and done I'll be all right it's all right. Tell me something that's sure to break my heart 'cause everything's my fault. And I know I deserve to be alll.....How do you expect me to move on, to let you go, when I see you everyday and talk to you constantly? We can't be together, I know that, so I want you out of my life, completely. I can't be friends with you because seeing your face and hearing your voice just makes me think about how much I love you, and then about how I can't be with you. This is the easiest way for me, to let go of something, I have to let go of it completely, even if it means we can't be friends."
one 'cause everything's my fault."

I KNOW SOMEDAY YOU WILL COME BACK......

"I remember every word you said, okay? I'm not that naive and I'm not that stupid. I've been broken before, I can deal. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road, that you were my life.""I never knew it would b"My life is falling apart and nothing is going my way. It seems like everything is not how it should be. It was when I was with you that I felt great, like nothing mattered and everything was fine. Now that you're gone I have to deal with my problems."
"The thought of you and me together again someday is enough to get me through."
"If you loved me before and you cared about me that much before, then maybe someday you can do it again."
"Whenever I see you I start to feel sick. It used to be like the 'butterflies in your tummy, head over heels' kind of sickness ... but now it just hurts. Now it's just the 'I hate you so much, but need you with me' kind of sickness ... and all I know is that I need some medicine ... quick."

"In this weird way…I know you miss me. Not because of what we did or what we said but for what we didn't have to say. All the times we 'just knew.' I miss you too and the sad thing is I know you'll never find someone who cares for you as much as me."

"Maybe the reason we hate each other is because we can't face the fact that we are still in love."e this hard to lose something I never had.

ITS SO HARD MAN............

"It's so hard to say, 'I love you,' and not draw back in tears. Its so hard to know that your not there to help me face my fears. It's so hard to know the phone's at reach, but I cannot hear your voice. It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep inside. It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. It's so hard to live without you, when I need you more then words. I want to scream how much I love you but hold back and not be heard. It's so hard to go to sleep at night when I cannot dream of you. It's so hard to think that you might fall in love with someone new. It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. It's so hard to sit and wonder, where did I go wrong? It's so hard to live without you, if I only would have known, I will never love another, I would rather be alone."

"It's when I'm standing six feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just scream to the whole room that I'm still in love with you. It's when I'm sitting alone with the phone in my hand dialing your number and hanging up that I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight. It's when I am really sad about something and need someone to talk to that I realize you're the only one who really knew me at all. It's when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It's when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me."

"I'm trying really hard not to cry because every tear reminds me that I can't let go."

"I want to say I'm sorry, I want you to know I care. I want to say I'm blind for seeing something that wasn't there. I should have been more trusting, and listened to my heart, cause you're the only thing I need and it's tearing me apart..........

I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU............

"I know we've grown apart, but every now and then, I just close my eyes and here we are again."
"I just want you to think of me and miss me, when we are apart I just want you to hold me, and love me when we are together I want to be happy again and when I see you, be able to kiss you instead of give you a friendly hug. I want I want I want, but why can't I ever have?"
"So as of right now, I know what's best for me. And that's to get over him, even though I can't. My life is still lingering over every drop of love he has ever giving me. Even though I may not have always seen that love, I know it was still there, and like a fool, I let go of something so special to me, it was something I never knew I needed. And I had him.. and now as every tear I cry, I watch him slip further and further away from me. And it's my fault. It's my fault I let him make me cry, and it's my fault I am dealing with pain and misery. But if this is love... I'd do it all over again."
"No one will love me or care about me the way you did and I think that's what scares me the most, the fact that for so long you were mine, my life, my everything so now when I have to say good-bye how do I not cry, hurt and want you back?"
"I remember the worst...I think of the times I cried. I thought I couldn't hurt more but I was wrong. Because the pain of losing you then doesn't at all compare to what I feel now. Because the pain I feel now is the pain of knowing that I will never even get the chance to lose you again."
"Maybe it was something I said. Maybe it was something I did. But then again, maybe it was something I didn't say, but wanted to. And something I wanted to do, but didn't."

"I hate the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without you."
"The most difficult thing I have yet to learn is how to live without you in my life."
"It's hard realizing that I poured my heart out to you and you act like I am some kind of idiot and that you don't want me, but I know one day you will want me and I will not want you because you always want what you can't have...But that's the way my life goes. I still love you and I will never forget you and I pray even though we never talk anymore that when you sleep at night you dream of me as I do you."
"All along there was this voice inside my head telling me to give up, telling me it's not going to happen but I listened to my heart instead, believing one day, you'd make my dreams come true. I guess that was all just wishful thinking. But now it's too late to take the good advice the voice inside my head gave me, and for some strange reason I don't regret it... Maybe it's because I'm afraid to give up hope. I'm scared that if I give up on you, I'll give up on everything."
"Lately I talk to your memory more than I should. If I could just forget the past, I would, cause this missing you isn't doing me any good."
"Maybe one day I'll realize it wasn't love."
"I will always love the false image I had of you."
"And though you think I never cared, no one will ever take your place."
"I couldn't help it when I started to cry. I've told myself that love's a lie. You know life sucks when your dreams slip away. I'd trade all my tomorrows for one single yesterday."

LOVE SUCKZZZZZ......

"And it sucks because I know he's out there falling in and out of love with girls that aren't me." -
Of all the things you've taught me, there are still two things I don't know. I don't know how to fall out of love with you and I don't know how to let go."
"A thousand words couldn't bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither could a thousand tears, I know because I've cried. You left behind a broken heart and happy memories too. But I never wanted memories, I only wanted you."

"I saw you out last night and you seemed so surprised that I could walk right by and not blink an eye. Look at me. you probably think I'm doing fine. Good thing that you can't read my mind."

"I can't believe I just gave up. I just let you drop out of my life. I tried to make you stay, then one day it just got too hard and I saw what you really wanted was a life without me. So I gave up and now you're really gone. I wish I could make you come back, but tears, wishes, and reminiscing do nothing but make my heart break a little more."
"I'm afraid I'll end up alone. I'm scared that I'm always gonna be the 'sister' or 'friend' or the 'confidant,' not quite somebody's everything. I'm scared that I'll never find a guy that I'll love as much as I love you."

WISH WORDS COULD LET YOU KNOW........

You'll never know these true feelings I feel
For only you could they possibly be real.

You'll never know I dream of you at night
But only you could ever feel so right.

You'll never know what could really be there
Cuz your eyes stay shut so you're never aware.

You'll never know what words couldn't say
To open your eyes into feeling this way.

You'll never know I could be your one girl
To fulfill all dreams in your fantasy world.

You'll never know these feelings I've felt
For the little things you do that make me melt.

You'll never know cuz you're oblivious to see
All of these things that you do to me.

You'll never know these feelings I hide
Hoping you to have these feelings inside.

You'll never know these memories I hold
To keep me going, strong and bold.

You'll never know how hard this is to write
Because nothing describes these feelings quite right.

You'll never know cuz you listen to them
And for this mistake, what could have been.

You'll never know what I'd truly like to say
To clue you into how I feel this way. 


You'll never know cuz you're afriad to see
That the only one for you is me.

YOU ARE MY MISSING PIECE........

I am disturbed by the missing piece in me.

I am out of ideas to make myself okay like I promised.

I feel like am deeply wounded by the piece that has been cut out of me.

I feel speechless and out of words by the sadness that is filling me.

I miss you so much that makes my breathing hard.

I should be okay in each passing day or so I thought I would be but I missed you more that make things harder for me.

I can’t express myself, I just feel the sadness flowing in.

In my dreams you are with me, moving around me, touching me and speaking softly like the way I wanted.

But I cannot close my eyes and live in the dreams in all day long,

I have to open my eyes and find you gone and feel the missing piece.

Sometimes I wish I don’t wake up from sleep because waking up is finding you are not there.

I just wanted to say that I miss you so much please don’t hold it against me.

I am trying so hard not to feel this way but I just can’t, it is just the way I feel.

I am wishing that someday you give back the missing piece in me.

You are my missing piece

I just want One more Day with You.........

I'm so sad and depressed
Is all I want to do is rest
I go to sleep at night
But my dreams I just can't fight

I think of you lying in that bed
And wonder if there is anything I could have said
I wish you were still here
But I know that you are still near

I love you more than you know
I just wish you didn't have to go
I just want one more day with you
And I know that's what you would have wanted too

I miss you more and more each day
There is so much more we had to say
I know I will see you again
But my life is just started to begin........

LOST WITHOUT YOU.........

When you aren't by my side I'm lost without you
My heart is so lonely when i don't know what to do
I need you here with me, just to keep me strong
all the times you were right I admit i was wrong !!

In all the little arguments we may have sometimes
you know in my heart I just want to compromise
I never want to lose this feeling we both share
because without you in a puddle I could easily drown!!

I never want to see the day when we say goodbye
I don't want to feel the ache in my heart and eye
I never want it to rain a thunderstorm deep inside
becos i love u so much i couldn't hide !!

Day & night u r the only thing that comes to mind
the soul mate the best friend that took me ages to find
without you i'd be lonely within my little heart and soul
I'd always think of you each time I saw someone bowl !!

All the moments shated could come back to memory
I dream of you endlessly till i hit back to reality
but i don't want to feel that just want to feel your love
cause you're the blessing been sent from above !!

I never want to face the day when our world is gone
u r my everything that keeps me turned on
from now until the time that i reach the top of the sky
know i'd lost without yoy and my heart would die !!

I REALLY LOVE YOU...........

It's been so long without you - I miss the times we had. You were always telling me how much you loved me and showing me your love in the perfect way, but I had to leave you my baby, for that I'm so sorry.
I hear that you haven't been so well since the last time we talked and i know irritated you so much but you still love me and send me "I love you's" through the air, I want you to know that they landed safely, Baby. I've sent you kisses and I hope that they hit the spot.

Well, I just wanted to let you know that you are never far from my heart or mind; I still love you and I will forever miss my "hero" until God helps our paths to cross once more, I still love you........

I LOVE YOU FOREVER...........

It has been the most amazing 5 months of my life and I've already done things I have yet to actually realize. We have come a very long way and stuck by each other's side through a lot of pain. You have shown me what its like to love and be loved and that's my happiness. It's all I need to have the most amazing life I can possibly have, and thank you for it.You've helped me understand a lot of things people don't think I understand or think that I'm allowed to understand which is what is making me a very strong person. I have a lot more respect for love and people who have it. To be mature, you have to be an adult. But to be in love, you have to be nothing but a human being with a heart. That is very much true.. You are everything to me, my life really, and I'm not going to give that up. I can't live without a life. you are one of a kind and how people can say the things they do about you is beyond me. I don't understand why people don't see you the way I do. In my eyes, you are the most amazing person. You understand me and care about me more than anyone else has ever even thought about. You are so caring, and wonderful. You're lovely. We have a healthy relationship that is going to last a life time because you and I are willing to work at anything that needs to be worked at.we are going to make our lives amazing along with someone else's. We are going to have an amazing family and an amazing home to live in. I know now that what we have is so very truer because I can see myself in you. I can see us in you, in your eyes.

I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE...

I cannot put in words how I feel about you when I see you walk by. These intense feelings will never go away until I can have you in my arms, and that you realize that there is only one woman for you and it is me. Everyday, I hope that you will come into my life and tell me how you feel because what I feel for you exists only inside my heart. You are the only man that can understand me, and you can only reach it; I give you the key, please unlock what you know can be the love you can only dream of. You are beautiful and I can't help but fall for you deeper every day. I can only hope that the day will arrive when you look deep into my eyes and you tell me what I have been waiting to hear: that you love me the same way I'm thinking of you always..........

MY LOST LOVE.........

I don't remember when I asked for our relationship to begin, but I remember the feelings you gave me whenever I was around you. I felt as if I was in a place where I would never get hurt and that's exactly what you did. I have never realized the pains of love until now. Everywhere I look I see your name or a small symbol that reminds me of you, and I find myself getting angry because it only reminds me of the pain that I cannot be with you. I wish that we could go back to the days when it was me and you. I want to show you how much you mean to me. You make my heart stop, even now after a year whenever anyone mentions your name or I see your face. I only wish things in life were simpler so that it could be me with you. I will love you forever.I would've never thought that I would ever have to question or doubt what we had. You're an amazing man, My love you've helped me to discover my dreams and inspired me to become the woman that I've always dreamed of becoming. I am a better person because of you - because you believed in me, because you love me. I love you dearly, with all my heart.

I look into your eyes and I see a love that is very much still there, but no longer radiant and alive. I don't believe that we grew apart, my love, but we began to grow differently. Does that mean that we stopped loving each other? Absolutely not. You're a very special soul in my life and you will always continue to be. I love you with all my being and I accept that we are now traveling down different paths in our lives, but my love for you will always remain constant and my past of you will be relived in my dreams. Though our roads are different, our paths will always cross and maybe someday in the future, our roads will meet and we will travel down the same path once again, until then my sweet love ... in my heart is where you always reside............I know you wont come back but its hard for me to believe...The days we send together was the ever beautiful moments in my life.........I always wanted is nothing else its you my love........i love you always.........

You are my Man..........

I am writing to you to tell you how much you truly mean to me. This  year was one of the best years of my life and it's all because of you. I love you with every beating piece of my heart. Every train of thought turns to you. You are the most wonderful, smart, talented, handsome man I have ever met and I thank God every day that you're mine. I love you more than I could ever explain, more than I even understand. I hope that we last forever. I hope you are the man I marry. I love you, you are my  everything...Ilove you my love....

Come back to me I need Your Love........

Across all these miles and far into the distance .You are out there somewhere And I wonder what you are doing at this very moment... Are you thinking of me? Have I even crossed your mind? I just wish that I could be near you, Instead of across all these miles. I'm sitting here without you, And I'm thinking about all the things we've talked about, I just can't seem to get you off my mind. In your arms, holding me tight is where I'd like to be, instead across all these miles and far into the distance. How comforting is my heart when I am by your side. Yet, I can not explain the words that I feel for it is a feeling that I can not describe by words of mouth., but, of words of heart! And this is the way I can tell you how I feel. Love is the greatest thing I have ever encountered in my entire life and I am so grateful for that love to be yours. You have given me a new feeling inside my heart and also have touched my heart in places that I never knew existed. If I could take my heart from my chest and give it to you I would! Therefore you will have to settle for the heart that I give to you which is the feeling that you feel inside. That is my honest and true love straight from my heart to yours. Even you are far my face gives to you a warm embracing smile yet, my heart cries out to you not to go. I miss you. I whisper to the wind "I LOVE YOU" hoping that you get the message inside your heart and think of me the same way! I wonder if you think of me half as much as I think of you. I miss you so much. I love you! I love you more that words can say and more than I can show to you. I hope that you do know that I do love you and feel it in your heart where ever you go. You remain in my heart....my mind.......my soul and my life for all time. True Love Never Dies it only gets stronger! I hope that one day I am able to tell you exactly how I feel, maybe that day will never come. Maybe this love I have for you is so powerful that there are no words to describe it.................

MISSING YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY...

This is what it is just me being the selfish person I have always been and loosing the man I love, the only man I will ever love this way.
You see, I met this wonderful God fearing man and he took my breath away from the moment we talked online. Yes we met online. Anyway, I messed up. We fell in love and I got selfish and just plain mean and told him to choose me over the God he loves so much. I was an idiot. How could I do such a thing? I thought that at the time I was right in asking but after being saved and finding out that you put God before any other person in your life I realized that I had made a terrible mistake but it was to late. He broke my heart and I said things I dont think he will ever forget and I cant stop thinking why was I so stupid? Missing him is now what I do and pray everyday that maybe God will bring him back into my life. I cant try to imagine what it will be like without him. I get online and he wont even speak to me and it cuts through my soul like a knife. After all my taunts and carrying on I am the fool. God knows I am sorry for the things I have done and I pray to our Father in Heaven to give me comfort and help me get through this pain I am feeling. I know he know's what is best for all of us and I have to just put my faith in God and know that in the end he will do the right thing and if it be that I never see this beautiful
loving man again, then I will know that someday he will find the woman he is meant to share his life with and be forever a bliss with. I will find happiness again I am sure of it but for now I miss him and I love him more than anything. Unbreak my heart and say you will love me again is just to much I am afraid to ask

BEST FRIENDZ FOREVER......

Just when I think I've lost my way
Something illuminates the dark
There you are leading the way
Love shining from your heart

Many friends have crossed my path
And I thank God for them all
But I got an extra special blessing
When your friendship answered my call

You stayed by my side every step
Even when others fled
I know that because you're here
I can face whatever's ahead

Your smile and laugh urge me on
And encourage me to be strong
Your loving support helps me stand
When the road is rough and long

So much that I can thank God for:
My family and health
But when He blessed me with you
He gave me more than wealth

Mortal words could never explain
What you have come to be
You are my life, my world, my heart
You are EVERYTHING to me

From the bottom of Heart...Best moments...!!!!!!

It's been years since the last time I saw your face. I had seen so many moons and sunsets but still no trace of your smile. My heart longed for you as the flowers longed for the rain. What have you been doing now? I hope you still remember the way I called your name back then. There are so many things that I can't forget about you. The way you comb your hair in the beautiful daylight, the way you speak, the way you swear, the way you walk and from this I must say ... I love everything about you. I wish I could be there where you are right now. To hold you and tell the very secret that my soul kept inside up to now - that I love you. This is my purpose in life ... to protect you and give all the very best for you. As I write this letter, I can almost feel you beside me.

Last night, in my dreams, I saw your face. You are so beautiful. You were standing at the beach and the wind was blowing through your hair. Your face is a vision I think I could never find in anyone else. Then I started to reach you but as soon as I'm getting nearer to you ... You were fading away and I couldn't do anything about it ... I started to bow my head and began crying but then I heard your voice calling out to me ... As you were fading away, I find myself remembering everything about those beautiful moments ... moments with you.

I always dream of you this way ... And as the days passes by, my love for you will never go, it grows stronger and deeper in the depths of my heart. Please don't ask me why do still long for you ... for there's no one else but you that this heart of mine would love forever. My heart will always belong to you and all my love I send to you.

You are my heart, you are my life, you are my smile, you are my world... and you are my love

FOR YOU MY LOVE.....

It's the end of the day and I was thinking about you, as usual. I want you to know how much I sincerely love the times we've spent talking. It means so much to me. It truly seems like I've known you forever and I honestly can't imagine life without you now. There will be no looking back, no second thoughts and no regrets. I want you and need only you ... and that love will only grow stronger. Do not be scared my love. Sometimes life hits you with unexpected things that take you totally by surprise. All I can say is you're the best surprise life has given me and your capacity for love, caring, and understanding never ceases to amaze me. I've truly been blessed by finding you and I'll never let you go even if I have to bring you here.....

You are my Hero...!!!!!

Secretly you have taken each broken piece of my heart from all those before you and put it together like a puzzle. Our troubled times were those of which my heart was not put completely together, but once the last piece was placed, that was when I realized I can't live without you.

You are a great guy and I just can't imagine a day without knowing you. When you are not here I see you, I smell you, I feel you, I miss you... 

IAM SORRY..................

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could hold you. I've realized that I've tried to replace you over and over since I made the foolish decision to leave you. But, no one can make me laugh and smile like you do. You are the only one that ever made me so happy. No one could ever take your place. I feel as if my soul has stolen my heart and left me to cry myself to sleep each and every night with guilt in my heart of how I hurt you. I guess you just don't realize what you have until it's gone. I was so stupid to leave you. I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry and I beg with every ounce of my soul please forgive me!

I LOVE YOU..............

ALL I EVER WANT IS TO BE WITH U MY LOVE...WHEN I'M WITH U EVERYTHING IS EASIER

U GIVE ME UR STRENGTH WHEN I FEEL POWERLESS...U GIVE ME UR ADVICE WHEN I'M FEELING

CONFUSED...U GIVE ME UR CARE WHEN I'M FEELING ILL...U GIVE ME UR MOST LOVE WHEN I NEED U THE MOST...

THESE ARE SO MANY REASONS TO LOVE U  THE WAY I DO...U WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART, IN MY MIND N IN MY SOUL...

 

THANK U  MY LOVE FOR BEING SO SWEET , KIND, CARING N LOVING...

Iam Alone.........

rit frm our 1st day meeting.........

u tried to talk with me .......

i respond..........

u tried to get ma num...

i gave............

u tried to msg me....................

i replied..............

u tried to say u like me..........

i smiled.............

all d approaches strtd frm ur side..

nw too.........

u tried to leave me...........

but............

i...i......i.......dnt knw wat to say i dnt knw hw to react......i love u like anythng...if its ur wish.i respect that too.....i wish u too get a nice gal than me...this is wat i can do 4 my love..take care................

When I asked You Why You Loved Me..You Said...

When i asked you y u loved me u said i cared u alot...am loving..iam pampering u...treating u like a small kid..bt now i knew everything was a lie..a big lie..u made me laugh..u made me  cry..u made me feel that iam someone special..u hold me in in my low..u wiped my tears..i reted myself in ur shoulders...whenever i felt iam nothing u said me that iam everything to u...........
But now i knew that iam alone in this world.............
everytime wen u said that we will b together i knew that some day we have to change our directionz of life...i know u wont come back but still each night i woke up search for ur texts in my cell...my brain knew that u wont be there for me but my heart doesnt..
Do that mean i still care u.......???????? 

Self Rejection..........

“Over the years, I have come to realize that the greatest trap in our life is not success, popularity, or power, but self-rejection. Success, popularity, and power can indeed present a great temptation, but their seductive quality often comes from the way they are part of the much larger temptation to self-rejection. When we have come to believe in the voices that call us worthless and unlovable, then success, popularity, and power are easily perceived as attractive solutions. The real trap, however, is self-rejection. As soon as someone accuses me or criticizes me, as soon as I am rejected, left alone, or abandoned, I find myself thinking, "Well, that proves once again that I am a nobody." ... [My dark side says,] I am no good... I deserve to be pushed aside, forgotten, rejected, and abandoned. Self-rejection is the greatest enemy of the spiritual life because it contradicts the sacred voice that calls us the "Beloved." Being the Beloved constitutes the core truth of our existence.” 

Its raining outside....

“Halfway home, the sky goes from dark gray to almost black and a loud thunder snap accompanies the first few raindrops that fall. Heavy, warm, big drops, they drench me in seconds, like an overturned bucket from the sky dumping just on my head. I reach my hands up and out, as if that can stop my getting wetter, and open my mouth, trying to swallow the downpour, till it finally hits me how funny it is, my trying to stop the rain.

This is so funny to me, I laugh and laugh, as loud and free as I want. Instead of hurrying to higher ground, I jump lower, down off the curb, splashing through the puddles, playing and laughing all the way home. In all my life till now, rain has meant staying inside and not being able to go out to play. But now for the first time I realize that rain doesn't have to be bad. And what's more, I understand, sadness doesn't have to be bad, either. Come to think of it, I figure you need sadness, just as you need the rain.

Thoughts and ideas pour through my awareness. It feels to me that happiness is almost scary, like how I imagine being drunk might feel - real silly and not caring what anybody else says. Plus, that happy feeling always leaves so fast, and you know it's going to go before it even does. Sadness lasts longer, making it more familiar, and more comfortable. But maybe, I wonder, there's a way to find some happiness in the sadness. After all, it's like the rain, something you can't avoid. And so, it seems to me, if you're caught in it, you might as well try to make the best of it.

Getting caught in the warm, wet deluge that particular day in that terrible summer full of wars and fires that made no sense was a wonderful thing to have happen. It taught me to understand rain, not to dread it. There were going to be days, I knew, when it would pour without warning, days when I'd find myself without an umbrella. But my understanding would act as my all-purpose slicker and rubber boots. It was preparing me for stormy weather, arming me with the knowledge that no matter how hard it seemed, it couldn't rain forever. At some point, I knew, it would come to an end.” 

Life....

“It’s not that we have to quit 
this life one day, but it’s how 
many things we have to quit 
all at once: music, laughter,
the physics of falling leaves, 
automobiles, holding hands,
the scent of rain, the concept 
of subway trains... if only one 
could leave this life slowly!” 

Its Raining....

“There are a hundred things she has tried to chase away the things she won't remember and that she can't even let herself think about because that's when the birds scream and the worms crawl and somewhere in her mind it's always raining a slow and endless drizzle.


You will hear that she has left the country, that there was a gift she wanted you to have, but it is lost before it reaches you. Late one night the telephone will sign, and a voice that might be hers will say something that you cannot interpret before the connection crackles and is broken.


Several years later, from a taxi, you will see someone in a doorway who looks like her, but she will be gone by the time you persuade the driver to stop. You will never see her again. 

Whenever it rains you will think of her. ”